Is your path straight?

Does your husband threaten to leave you all the time? Mine does. Just this morning, he was storming around the house screaming because he was still mad about me having to go to a doctor's appt. last night (he was stuck with the kids). On his way out the door, he told me I was a fu#king cu%t. He then went on to say "this, right here, is coming to an end", and he made a little circle in the air with his finger.
I live in constant fear that one of these days he will mean it and walk out on us. I struggle with that fear, because I know that I wasn't given a spirit of fear, but of power.

Romans 8:15

For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."

I know that I can cry out to my Father in fear, and that He will comfort me, but all too many times, I lean on my own understanding, which fails me every time.

Proverbs 3:5-6

⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.


Am I leaning on my Father as I am commanded? Are you? I know that I have a long way to go before I can fully rely on the wisdom of my Lord. First, i need to move out of the way, and let Him work things out for my family.